Wednesday, October 19, 2011 . 2:26 PM

Is it just me or is everyone being damn disagreeable lately?

I really hate it when people discount my opinions.

I mean, wow. Just because in usual times I'm the guy who doesn't disagree or protest against what people want to do or say, you all think I'm a "yes" man or something? Just because I don't contribute at times, does that mean I don't have an opinion?

Then when I have an opinion on a matter, everyone is in SHOCK AND AWE. They can't believe that I have something to say about the matter. After they have recovered from their shock, they treat my opinion as a childish opinion, like it doesn't matter. They think I'm looking at things from a childish viewpoint just because I've never contributed to their "intellectual" arguments before. They do not accept my argument because they're so fixated on their own viewpoint, and because they discount my opinion because I'm supposed to be "opinion-less". Or maybe they just think I'm a stupid stupid person. Which is probably true.

Why bother arguing when you're not going to accept the other party's viewpoint? If you're not going to budge from your stance, then I have nothing more to say. If you're not going to listen to what I have to say, then there really is no point in me saying anything, is there? Why do you think I just shut up all the time? I don't see the point in arguing, and I know my opinions will be discounted anyway, so why the hell should I bother?

On a side note, people used to say I take things very personally. This is even true now. I STILL do take things personally, but I've learnt to look at situations from other ways and viewpoints and now am not so wary and insecure all the time. I thank God for that. Some people told me that they were disappointed in others because how they behaved was not in conjunction with how they were supposed to have learnt things from God. I suggest to these people now: look at yourselves first. Why I put these two thoughts together? Go think about it. Don't bloody take things so personally. Look at what I'm saying. If you would just stop discounting my opinions and what I have to say, you'll understand I wasn't knocking on you. But no. So it turns out to be my fault. Which brings me to my next point.

I REALLY hate it when people think they can have temper tantrums on me and I am just there to suck it all up. Not the bloody first time it has happened to me, and not the first person who has done it to me. I have bloody feelings too. Sometimes, I'M THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO BLOW OFF STEAM. But I'm expected to suck it up when things go sour all the time? I'm expected to shut up and take it? And then APOLOGIZE for something I've not done? APOLOGIZE for a misunderstanding? Like I DON'T HAVE AN OPINION OF MY OWN? Like I DON'T HAVE A RIGHT TO BE ANGRY TOO? I'm really SICK of how all you people treat me. I'm SICK of you all.

What, you think I'm some charity case because I'm a SOCIAL PARIAH and so I should be happy that you're even SPEAKING to me??? Well, screw you then.

I have no faith in the human race. You've just proved that thought right to me again.

Just because I'm all right on the outside doesn't mean I totally agree with everything. Just because I'm smiling on the outside doesn't mean I'm happy.

"You'll Never Walk Alone", but I always will.

Archangel