Thursday, May 27, 2010 . 10:52 PM

Oh Lord, way to compound my misery.

I just heard that the semi-pro a cappella group that I auditioned for not only deemed me poor enough to not accept me into their group as a bass but who also didn't have the decency to email me the rejection, just accepted one of my juniors from Resonance into their group. He's a bass.

But he's singing alto for them.

WTF?! From what I've heard it seems like they haven't accepted any basses or baritones either. He's like the only guy who made it through the auditions... Auditioning for bass but singing alto. I have to get to the bottom of this.

I have nothing against the guy, it's just that perhaps in my own egotistical viewpoint I thought I would've been a better candidate to join the group, not only as a bass but musically-wise, but I guess they didn't think so. Yeah, I'm probably so damn much suckier than I think I am.

What f***ing dreams of performing your own group act on stage, that's what they are, just f***ing dreams. As proven time and time again, with After 6 not even asking me to audition first and now Equivox giving me the cold shoulder, I'm just a f***ing loser who thinks he's good at singing. Heh.

What a way to kick a guy when he's down, way to go. Is there NOTHING that I can be good at?

I love this life. The way this is going, I'm probably going to fail ortho on Saturday. Heck, maybe I already have after the MCQs and OSCAs. Heh.

It hurts, man... It really f***ing hurts.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 . 3:00 PM

After the release of the NNI results, I only have one thing to say.

F***.

Seriously. F*** this bullshit. Now I only have 1 f***ing confirmed elective. ONE F***ING confirmed elective.

F***! I'm getting a very strong feeling that it's not unstructured or structured what ballotting bullshit it wasn't down to luck it was some technical error that disqualified the 3 of us that's just f***ing screwed up.

I bet less than half these people want to do neuro as a possible specialty in the future too! They just want it to bloody get As for their MBBS. F***.

Someone in heaven truly f***ing hates me. He loves to watch me writhe in misery after long periods of hope and expectation. How f***ed up is that.

Whatever man. Nothing in life goes right. F*** it all.

I feel like crying. This is so f***ing unfair.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010 . 12:27 PM

Damn awesome song. You might recognize this song on the sony TV adverts featuring Kaka juggling a ball with images of him in a zoetrope.