Tuesday, February 02, 2010 . 2:06 AM

Sometimes I wonder whether people ever take me seriously at all.

I mean what I say, you know. I'm not the kind to lie to your face just to make you feel better. If you're a close enough friend to me, I'll tell the truth straight to your face, although I may try make it sound nice (just ask SJ or JT). If you're not, I'd rather say nothing than lie. That's how I work. So if you don't believe in what I say to you, then that's your problem, because I definitely truly believe in it.

I guess I shouldn't say anything to anyone anymore cos it feels as if whatever I say just passes the person by. Two conclusions: Either they don't like me or they think I'm spouting nonsense. Given my experiences I'm very inclined to go with the former.

I don't seem to make an impact in any way on anybody... I guess I should just save my breath and saliva, and become the ghost I'm being treated as.

I'm very disillusioned with the people around me. I'm very disillusioned and disappointed with myself for being unable to cope and letting it get to me all the time.
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I can't do it, I really can't.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

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