Thursday, December 31, 2009 . 11:33 PM

Seems like I'm the only one alone at home on New Year's Countdown...


I've finally finished Assassin's Creed 2. 100% completion. Storyline, feathers, glyphs, treasure chests, assassin's tombs, side missions, everything!

All achievements too :)

Finally! Now I can move on to complete Arkham Asylum.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 . 12:38 AM

Imagine doing free running, parkour, over the rooftops of Venice or whatever city, never stopping, just continuing to run and run, almost like an eagle flying...


"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Monday, December 28, 2009 . 1:41 PM

Forget it. Forget that I even had that thought... Just let it go.

Suck it up, man. It's not the end of the world. You just need to stop getting reminded of it.

I need time off from the source of my worries.

I'm sorry I got distracted, but I need some assurance that what I'm doing here is right. That I'm at least on the right track? I don't know. I feel like I'm chasing a lost cause every time. Give me a reason to continue... Give me some security.

Life really sucks at the moment. I'm a selfish piece of shit for complaining about it, but I can't help but feel this way.

Forgive me for being so selfish... And please, please give me the strength to continue, and the courage to accept what cannot be changed.

Sunday, December 27, 2009 . 6:01 PM

Should I? Or should I not? To say it would be to put everything at risk. To not would slowly eat away at myself inside.

Let's look at it objectively, shall we? If I WERE to broach the subject, one of two, maybe three things will happen: one of them possibly the best thing that can happen to me in this immediate future, one of them totally disastrous... The last being not so disastrous but it will fester like a chronic illness till the whole thing dies.

If I WERE to broach the subject, it'd be totally for my own personal gain. By "gain" I don't mean happiness or material gain, I mean the gain of knowledge. It could work either way in that case, but I still get something out of it. Therefore it would be a totally selfish action to do, as it will not bring any benefit to any other parties involved, maybe it would make things worse for them too.

Now let's look at it from the other angle. If I WEREN'T going to do anything... Everything remains status quo. We'll be good, everything will be great (at least on the surface). I will not have my answer, but hey, I can live by assumptions (seems like I've been doing that all my life anyway) just to maintain what I have now. It was hell for a long time, I've most recently got out of it, and I don't think I deserve to ask for anything more than that. PLUS the fact that everything CAN bomb and go to hell if I go with the first option, means I probably won't take the risk of broaching the subject. I would not look for an answer selfishly, but that also means I will not take the risk on the off-chance that something great will happen to me.

I don't know what the hell to do.

If SJ hadn't been sick and we had gone for that dinner and movie, maybe he could've advised me on what to do but as of now, aw hell. I guess I have to live with my inner demons indefinitely. Better that one guy suffers than many other people.

Or you could look at it another way and just call me a coward.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Monday, December 21, 2009 . 11:14 PM

Nothing's going to change, is it. I know it's a lost cause but I still can't help but feel the way I feel when these things happen.

Some people don't understand how lucky they are.

Sunday, December 20, 2009 . 2:25 PM

I hardly knew you, only as the girl from handbells I worked with once in J1... This is for you and your family. How youthful, happy and carefree you were then... I would like to remember you in that light.

I lost someone dear to me and my family recently, and I thought how unfair and unjust it was for her to go so young but this... Nobody deserves anything like that. I pray that you are safe, that God has taken you into his loving arms, and that your family finds peace.

Shine on, for everyone.

Saturday, December 19, 2009 . 10:39 PM

I'm calling you out Paul Tomkins, I'm calling you out to come forth and make excuses for Liverpool's current form. I'm calling you out to tell us patient as hell fans how we managed to lose 2-0 to the club at the bottom of the Premier League.

What a f***ed up day. Really. No joy at all from anything I did or from anyone I talked to. Looks like it's going to enter one of those cycles again. Seems to have come early, maybe it's heralding a change of luck or good things happening in events in my life for the worse.

Whoop-dee-doo.

Thursday, December 17, 2009 . 11:31 PM

Awesome song. I love British indie rock bands :)

This song is potentially a-cappella-ble. Heheheh. Now to get off my lazy butt and attempt to transcribe it.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 . 4:05 PM

Omg I can't believe I actually PASSED my pathology CA and did rather okay with minimal studying.

Some luck at last. Thank God.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Monday, December 14, 2009 . 1:54 AM

I only have 2 words for you, Liverpool.

F***ing

and

Hopeless.

Sunday, December 13, 2009 . 12:41 PM

What a horrible night.

After mugging another chapter of Pharmacology for the CA on Tuesday, I decided to call it a night at around 0330. Got in bed, tried to sleep. Some days when you hit the sack, you fall asleep right away, sometimes you don't, you just take that little bit longer. For some reason, a multitude of thoughts were running through my mind as I lay there on my mattress, and by the time I raised my head to glance at the clock, 15 minutes had already passed. I was still wide awake.

So I just lay there with my thoughts... Hopefully I'd drift off to sleep... But in times like these the worst thoughts always creep into my mind... First was that I was never gonna finish studying in time for the two tests and the usual crap like "I should've started earlier" or "I wish I would stop getting distracted" stuff kept turning up... Then stuff like relationships and friendships come into mind... And the usual questions "What the hell am I doing with my life" comes into mind...

It was 0400 already.

I decided, to hell with it, and I went down to hopefully relieve some of the tension with some FIFA 10. Didn't work, came back up and was as energetic as ever. Didn't really want to print notes cos I'd wake my family up... So I watched some Combat Missions on youtube, then I started to get tired at around 0600.

Slept at 0600. Can you believe it? Now I know what sleep anxiety feels like.

My whole morning is gone cos I just woke up at 1200. Crap. Gotta rush everything now. Very poor time and sleep management... If I can't finish, maybe I'll not go for the psych lects tomorrow... But then again, I bet tons of people won't go cos of the CA the next day... So if I don't go as well... The lecturers are gonna be mighty pissed.

Every time before a test I always wonder how on earth I'm gonna make it through this, and every time the test is over I always wonder, in retrospect, how I managed to survive it.

I guess things always have a way of working out... But I don't wanna ride on my luck for so many times in a row. Gotta work harder.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Thursday, December 10, 2009 . 10:34 PM

This is awesomeness personified. I still wonder how I never got hooked to Muse earlier in my life.




God, she's beautiful.

Tuesday, December 08, 2009 . 7:30 PM

DagNAMit why isn't Fallout 3 Game of the Year Edition released in Singapore for the Xbox 360!!! There's only the ruddy PS3 version!!! ARRRRGHHHHH

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Saturday, December 05, 2009 . 9:39 PM

Man I really should be doing work... But oh well. Slacking always takes top priority in my to-do lists. Heheh.

Went back to RI to play football today after like... 2+ months of not playing? I dunno. How long ago was patho CA? It was that long ago. The whole place was empty. Seriously. You'd think that now it's hols we'd have more pple to compete with for the astroturf and the field... But I guess everyone is overseas or something. The security guard didn't even show up to chase us off.

Saw many familiar faces again, guys I didn't expect to see... Really good to see those guys again. BZX hasn't changed a bit (haven't seen him since JC), still looks exactly the same as he was in Sec 4 heheh. Maybe less plump. DM came back from Aussie with a nice goatee, he really wears it quite well. I mistook Ajit for Suhas at first, he looks damn different without his red specs o_O... He's also back from overseas, though I'm not sure where... Still expecting Aditya back from the US though.

Well my football stank, which is to be expected, haven't touched a football in months... First touch (which has never been my forte) stank especially, kept giving away balls =\. My heading surprisingly was good, managed to hit the target once and clear the ball away during corners on two separate occasions... Apart from that was just getting used to the flow again, being reminded how terribly unfit I am, starting out as a right winger then ending up as left/centre back... The usual.

I look forward to playing again next time, which will probably be 2 weeks from now cos I still have exams... EVERYONE else has hols! Dammit.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Thursday, December 03, 2009 . 6:49 PM

It's already December 3... Why isn't the Fallout 3: Game of the Year Edition released in Singapore yet... Why wasn't Fallout 3 made a region-free game... If it were, I could've gotten a copy from USA or Europe without having to wait and wonder if it will ever be released in Singapore... Why can't Japan release an ENGLISH version of the NTSC-J format that would work on my Xbox 360...

I guess the other alternative is to wait and hope that someone wants to sell his old Fallout 3 for the 360 as 2nd hand... But that's highly unlikely as the game is very replayable... Sigh.

I mean, I don't mind waiting for it to be released, I have so many other games to play and catch up on, but at least tell us IF and WHEN it is gonna be released in Singapore, right? Hurms. =(

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Tuesday, December 01, 2009 . 7:59 PM

One thing I hate about reading other people's blogs is that somehow for some reason you always think that they're talking about you. Then you find ways that the post can fit in context of the interactions that you've had with the person. Then you realize that it actually makes sense.

Then you think: "Since when have I been something like a priority in this person's life" or something along those lines. If it's a good post, then *CRASH*. If it's a bad one, then you can't help but wonder.

This is almost like a delusion of reference. I'm psychotic.


"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel