Wednesday, April 29, 2009 . 8:24 PM
[When this began]
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
[I was confused]
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
[Inside of me]
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
[Nothing to lose]
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
[I was confused]
Looking everywhere, only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
[So what am I]
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
[Nothing to lose]
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong
I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
Sunday, April 26, 2009 . 3:30 AM
I curse whoever punctured my rear tyre with a razor blade to rot in hell for eternity.
If you've got nothing better to do, go run in front of a speeding vehicle, instead of wasting other people's money replacing spare tyres.
Idiot.
Friday, April 24, 2009 . 12:12 AM
Can you imagine the identity that you've carved out for yourself since secondary school being wiped out just like that, as easy as someone snapping their fingers?
The first was snatched away, the second, crushed.
What the hell am I good at? I don't even know anymore. I'm guess I'm just good at being mediocre. No, scratch that, good at being the worst most probably.
F*** this shit.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 . 10:19 PM
Quotes of the day:
[During lunch]
Arshvin: What CCA were you from, Alfred?
Alfred: Guess?
Arshvin [after much deliberation]: SEX club.
[While walking past the Human Reproduction Clinic]
Perry [points]: Priya, you're late for your appointment...
[During lunch]
Me: My dog is a half breed husky...
Daniel: Oh, so what is the other breed?
Me: Don't know, it just suddenly got pregnant one day.
Arshvin: Sounds like Priya.
Poor Priya the tailgating lousy-parking-skills woman! :D Haha. She's gonna kill me if she ever reads this.
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel
Oh, the horror of horrors.
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel
Monday, April 20, 2009 . 6:16 PM
Ever had one of those days where the difference between it becoming a great day, ordinary day or lousy day all hinged on one opportunity in which you must seize for it to become a great day?
I somehow seem to balk at the opportunities =\
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel
Thursday, April 16, 2009 . 7:57 PM
Not been having the mood to type out whatever I feel on my blog... So - I just let the songs speak for themselves.
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow
Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below
When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low
If you love me
Won't you let me know?
Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fox became God
Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft
Bury me in armour
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home unfolds
If you love me
Won't you let me know?
I don't want to be a soldier
when the captain of some sinking ship
would stow, far below
So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?
I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still
So if you love me
Won't you let me know?
If you love me,
Won't you let me know?
Archangel
Monday, April 13, 2009 . 11:32 PM
I've been trying hard to reach you 'cause I don't know what to do
Oh, brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I want to talk to you
Oh I want to talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You could climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song that no one had sung
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle?
You can't find your missing piece
Tell me how you feel
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You could climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song that no one had sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going and you wanna talk
But you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's talk
Let's talk, let's talk
Archangel
There's one thing about falling into traps.
There's another about getting once bitten, twice shy...
But there's something else altogether when you keep walking into the same spider-web yet keep coming back for more...
It's really not smart, and I should shift my thoughts and focus elsewhere...
But I just can't do it, until the door has been firmly slammed in my face.
That's why I'm a sucker for punishment.
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel
Saturday, April 11, 2009 . 12:36 AM
Haven't gone shooting in a while, tonight was my first time in months. Some sample shots...
Thursday, April 09, 2009 . 1:34 PM
The more you invest into something, the more you stand to lose.
The less you invest, the less you gain.
Will you be cautious to keep yourself safe, or will you risk it all for something better?
Tuesday, April 07, 2009 . 11:36 AM
Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I, can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before and it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance
To be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine
And hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself
My light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there
Archangel
Friday, April 03, 2009 . 12:39 AM
Life.
Don't you find it interesting?
Why do people bother to make plans for anything in their lives...
Life never turns out the way you planned it to or the way you hope it to be.
So, just go with the flow and take things as they come... Whatever setback happens in your plans, just laugh it off... When something unexpected happens and suddenly you have to deal with another factor in your situation, just lap it up... That's just life anyway, out to screw you over.
And over and over again...
And people, don't get me started on people. People = manipulation. People = twisting others to fit into their own scheme of plans and desires. Who cares about what other people feel so long as you get what you want. The end justifies the means, doesn't it? So you can conveniently leave out information and entice people to commit to something, then happily reveal your grand scheme of plans to screw the person over. Wonderful. Just wonderful.
I always get depressed when people leave me out, when people forget about me, or when they treat me as an afterthought, which happens more often than not. But what gets me off more is when people use me.
Brilliant.
So there you have it, a little story I like to call: LIFE.
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel
Thursday, April 02, 2009 . 12:04 PM
To do list post-pros:
1. Take guitar lessons from the maestro himself, Wong Liang ZeEEEE!
2. Go back to playing piano again, re-learning all my half-baked songs and learning COLDPLAY ones.
3. Get my Xbox fixed (RROD for the SECOND time...).
4. Finish arranging my a cappella scores for Gravity and hopefully Viva La Vida.
5. Go shooting.
6. Play pool.
7. Drive aimlessly around Singapore... (okay maybe not)
I'm probably gonna do all these activities by myself, unless anyone wants to join me (and my mood allows for it).
For point 2, does anyone know where I can get the authentic Coldplay scores for their different albums? Not sure if Yamaha would sell books like these... Cos if not I'd have to ship it in from overseas and it'll cost a bomb. Help would be much appreciated.
"You'll Never Walk Alone"
Archangel