Friday, March 27, 2009 . 9:12 PM

I'm reaching the point in studying where you try to test yourself what you mugged like last week, or a as much as up to a few days ago, and you only can recall bits and pieces of what you mugged.

It SUCKS I tell you, it really freaking sucks.

I've had it up to HERE already with this incessant mugging, memorizing loads of shit and trying to puke it all out in the examination in a desperate bid to pass. For the WHOLE of Year 2 it's been like this.

I don't remember studying being so difficult. I remember back in JC, I could mug stuff and actually REMEMBER what I mugged for weeks or months later. Why is now so different??? And it's not freaking helping that it seems like whatever I mugged for A levels is multiplied by 100, it's not so easy to "run through" everything again lorh.

And I got no one to rant to, no one to complain to, no one who can see this from a different perspective. If I tell my mom, she'll say "So many lesser people have done it before you and passed, so you will definitely be able to", and I can't perfectly well tell her that I feel SO MUCH DAMN LESSER than all those people when I cannot recall stuff that I SHOULD. I cannot tell my med friends cos they'd complain back to me and it'd become a competition of how much your life sucks cos of this mugging. I can't tell my best friends cos they'd just tell me not to waste time and go back to mugging. OMG.

I hate this kind of life. Hopefully this suffering pays off in the end, and I don't have to go for pass/fail VIVAs, or supps.

Damn it.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

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