Tuesday, December 16, 2008 . 5:08 PM

I just realized something.

Everytime I play on that team there are effing double standards set for me.

Whenever someone else makes a mistake, or does make a poor decision, they don't care and just play on. The moment I make a mistake, they get on my back.

If that game was "just a kickabout", why were they constantly screaming at me whenever I got the ball? You know how much pressure there is? It's as if they anticipate that I'm going to make a mistake, and instead end up adding more pressure on to me. When it's "just a kickabout", and someone ELSE makes a mistake, they just kid around with him, maybe make fun of him a while, but with me, it's always screaming and scolding.

It's freaking double standards. Everytime they lose, if I played, they somehow always attribute it to me. If it's not my fitness, then they'll blame me for making mistakes or for swearing too much on the field. As if swearing will affect their play.

And when I play well? Nobody says anything. Not even a pat on the back, or some words to give confidence. It's like they expect me to play well ALL the time. How screwed up can that be? They believe themselves to be FAR better than me, but I'm not given any room to make mistakes. See the flaw in logic there? No, I don't think any of you will.

F*** it. That girl who warned Michael off all of you on the bus that day was right. I should stay away from all of you.

I should have done so a long time ago.

And I bet any of them who read this will then come up with a perfect excuse to mask everything and make themselves look like angels. Whatever. You can believe what you want. Thing is, I never enjoyed playing with you guys. And not just because you guys always LOSE.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

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