Wednesday, October 31, 2007 . 1:31 AM

You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so I could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it

Forget perfect, I'm trying not to be worthless
Since I last saw you I've been looking for a purpose
Well, I met this kid who thought like I did
He had a weird way of looking at it
This is what he said,

"Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared"

Now, I don't remember where I met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was just too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me

Listen: it's like poker you can play your best
But you gotta know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards, hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because

I don't need to tell you that life isn't fair, it doesn't care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air and like you
I want someone to say its OKAY
In the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid

We're just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that we're scaring ourselves
You understand what I'm saying, cos you always did
But it's different in the words of a cowardly kid who said,

"Slip out the back before they know you were there
At the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Slip out the back before they know you were there
At the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared"

And I'm no hero, you remember how it was, you know
All I ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
I'm spinning around in circles again

This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be
But I had to protect you from me

That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time I was around I'd just bring you down
And I could tell that it was time to be scared

That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
And I know the way I left wasn't fair
I didn't wanna be around just to bring you down
I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Sunday, October 28, 2007 . 5:50 PM

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing
And the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing
And the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes

We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing
And the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Saturday, October 27, 2007 . 11:18 PM

We all try too hard sometimes...

And yet sometimes, it seems that we don't try hard enough.

There is a fine balance between trying too hard and not giving a damn. The problem is, it's hard to maintain that balance.

Life would be so much easier if the world were dealt in extremes... But if that were the case, life wouldn't be what it is now. Life is never black or white... But full of beautiful colours in between.

It is up to us to choose the colours that determine our life.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Wednesday, October 24, 2007 . 7:18 PM

I seek solace in my music.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Tuesday, October 23, 2007 . 4:52 PM

Random thoughts running through my head:

Perfection is difficult to attain. It's a pain trying to attain perfection. Why bother to work in a group when they are actually willing to settle for second best? I cannot take that...

If something is going to be impossible to achieve, should one not even bother trying at all? "Nothing ventured, nothing gain..." but what if there will be damage done if nothing is gained...

Should you persevere with something when it seems to be going nowhere?

Why do I even bother trying so hard?

Self-torture is masochism. Sometimes I wonder why I torture myself this way...

I blew it, and nothing I do now is gonna change that.

I see what you're doing now... You're just like him, just more subtle. Or at least you think you are...

Some people have dual personalities, depending on who they're with. It's to the point of being a hypocrite...

I hate people who treat me so nicely when they need something, and then treat me like dirt when they've got what they've wanted from me.

It's disappointing that some people don't turn out the way they seem to be at first. Looks like first impressions aren't always true impressions.

Putting me (or my belongings) down in front of other people isn't gonna impress them. Unless she really is that shallow...

Is what I'm doing right? Is is right to think these things? What is wrong with me... Why am I so bitter?

The world is a cruel place.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Monday, October 15, 2007 . 7:49 PM

Stolen from my fellow king, King Tuba!

1. My ex is: for you to find out if I really had one or not.

2. I am listening to: Gota by the Real Group. It's on my previous post! Fabulous.

3. Maybe I should: start reading up on cardiovascular system.

4. My best friends: are in the army while I'm a free civilian! Woot.

5. I don’t understand: anything.

6. I lose: hope and focus, and as a result, my temper rather easily.

7. People say: stuff.

8. The meaning of my screen name is: er... a higher echelon of Angel?

9. Love is: cruel.

10. Somewhere, someone: is doing something.

11. I will always: strive to be the best i can be.

12. Forever: is something that doesn't exist.

13. I never want to: have any regrets.

14. My cell phone is: thankfully not damaged in any way yet.

15. When I wake in the morning: i get up, brush my teeth, wash my face and wash my hair.

16. I get annoyed at: people who question my ability, commitment, integrity, discipline and professionalism.

17. Parties are: overrated.

18. My dog is: the most handsome siberian husky in the world.

19. Kisses are the worst when: you don't mean them.

20. Today I am: tired. then again, i always am.

21. Tonight I will: watch house.

22. Tomorrow I will: have pbl

23. I really want: to KNOW for sure

24. When I looked at myself in the mirror today I: noticed how much weight i had put on my face

25. I will drive my car: when i get my licence... and when i actually am rich enough to BUY a car.

26. A word that rhymes with “PARK” is: lark. stark. bark. mark. dark.

27. Bright or Dark Room?: dark. more conducive for sleeping/thinking.

28. If I’m alone in a room with two beds, I: am obviously not in my room

29. The last thing I said to someone was: it says "tear here to open" but there's no mark for tearing.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

Wednesday, October 10, 2007 . 7:47 PM

Beautiful... It sent shivers up and down my spine... Made my hair stand on end... Nearly brought tears to my eyes... If I could only get to do this song once in my life... I think I would die a happy man.

Hope you get as inspired by this as well.

"You'll Never Walk Alone"

Archangel

P.S. Listen to this song on wide-range speakers for the full effect.

Thursday, October 04, 2007 . 4:39 AM

The week just gets from bad to worse doesn't it?

You ever hear of the saying, "When shit happens, shit happens"? Well for me, it's more like diarrhoea.

Monday. I lose my keypad which will cost me $100 AND the medicamp DVD which we got on that VERY day... Without having even seen the photos yet. Great start to the week.

Tuesday. Our group in Resonance sang SO badly on the microphones that we were called off before we even finished the song during prac. How embarrassing was that. I hate being judged on my singing ability when I'm not doing my best. Just so happens that whenever I get on the mike, I do my worst. I think I screwed my anatomy FA too.

Wednesday. I actually FIND OUT that I lose my keypad AND the medicamp DVD. Then I realize that I could have dropped it anywhere. Just my luck that we HAD to have that physio thingy AND the anatomy FA in LT28, AND reso prac on tuesday. How the hell am I supposed to look for them now. It's a FREAKING $100!!! And I paid $8 for the freaking DVD. Wonderful.

Thursday. The sun hasn't even risen yet and already Liverpool have lost 1-0 in the Champions League. What a waste of 2 hours of my life. I wonder what's gonna happen to me later today man. I bet it's got something to do with the M1 vs M5 football match in the afternoon. Probably gonna play like crap or break a leg or how about NOT EVEN PLAYING?

And people ask me why I'm such a pessimist.

Anyone who provokes me in the next few days will die a horrible, and I mean HORRIBLE death.

I'm feeling vengeful.

Murphy's Law: "Whatever can go wrong will go wrong."

Elson's Law: "Anything that can go wrong already has, you're just not aware of it yet!"

Han Yang's Law: "When shit happens, diarrhoea results. When shit DOESN'T happen, it just means that your shit has not built up to the point of diarrhoea yet."

Archangel